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.. that just yesterday I was elated to finally see the first glimpse of my baby, only today to feel so down because of spotting brown discharge all day. I went to the OB and she said my cervix was closed upon IE, but I saw her gloves and it was full of brown discharge! 😣
I have to take tocolytics for a week. Even though I was somewhat relieved of my closed cervix and I do not feel any contractions apart from the normal abdominal pains and Sophie is still very much active, I’m still worried and can’t help thinking of preterm labor.. Could it be because I was daydreaming and looking at Sophie’s photos nonstop last night that somehow “nabati ko sya,” and can’t wait to get out? Oh please Sophie, we still have 6 more weeks! Please be a good girl and stay within mommy’s tummy a little longer! 🙏

It angered and frustrates me how some people think of just letting go of their pets; pets who serve them and gave them joy for more than 5 years, just because they do not like them anymore. I hate these kind of people. They disgust me. 😤😤😤

This is the first time that water from heavy rains has reached inside our house. This didn’t even happen last Typhoon Ondoy and Habagat 2012. But now, the joint forces of Habagat 2013 and Typhoon Maring has caused a shutdown of Metro Manila and neighboring provinces, has left hundreds or maybe thousands of people homeless, stranded and evacuated, has caused massive standstill of vehicles on the roads due to high floods, and some like us, who were lucky enough that only an inch or two of water reached the flooring of our house.

“Lord, please do not forsake us. Have mercy on us especially those who are suffering the most at this time. We lift everything up to you. We are standing still and know that you are our Almighty God. Amen.”

I know what Tabs must be feeling right now. He’s about to take his medical board exam for 2 weekends, starting tomorrow. Good thing he is so collected and cool, as he’s still doing some last minute studying. If it was me, I’d probably scare myself from all the anxiety and wouldn’t be able to sleep for several nights. I, too, have done my shares of undergoing a couple of board exams several years ago, and I tell you, it wasn’t fun at all.
In 2007, we both underwent the Nursing board exam, and it was especially difficult for our batch since the preceeding 2006 batch’s infamous leakage controversy. Preparing for the board was hard enough, with several months of review, PRC application, then the 2-day exam itself.. What was harder was the 2 month waiting time for the result to come out. Every waking day of that 2 months was spent thinking if I passed or failed. I even dreamed about it several times. It was the most difficult 2 months.
Upon passing the local board exam, I prepared myself to take the NCLEX, or the US RN board exam. Applying for this board was even harder and way too expensive, with too many requirements and all had to be sent to the US. To top it off, I was alone. Tabs was already taking his first year at med school and my other friends were working already. I commuted to SM Manila for my Gapuz review for almost a month, on my own. I also took the test alone, although Tabs drove me to the testing site. I also waited for a month, I think, for the result to come out, since it would be coming from California. How I dreaded those days of waiting.
When I finally received my letter of positive result from California Board of Nursing, I wasted no time and immediately reviewed for IELTS. Since Ph is not an english-speaking country per se, I needed this test, along with NCLEX, for me to qualify for a VisaScreen certificate, which is needed by an employer for me to work in the states. I love the English language, in fact, I am very good at it. But this test, considering it was only a language test, turned out to be more difficult than I expected. There was an interview part, and on the day of my interview I was really sick, as in severe cough and colds sick, and I was absolutely sure I flopped the interview from the disappointed look the interviewer gave me. So when I was about to claim my result personally, I was too nervous and shaky I couldn’t even walk up the stairs. Darn I couldn’t even open the envelope properly. I immediately teared up upon learning I passed. I seriously do not want having to do an IELTS again anymore. It was too stressful for me.
This time around Tabs is in the same situation again, 6 years after our local nursing board exam. Only this time he would be proved as a medical doctor. Yesterday, we went to Baclaran, to offer mass and seek for help and enlightenment. Of my 3 major exams, I did the same in this powerful church, and I was proud to say that not only did I pass, but with flying colors as well. I’m not a religious person, but I seek help if I need it, and thank if I was given. I believe that if you stay humble, have faith and lift everything up to Him, nothing is impossible. Believe and it will be given to you. That is The Secret. If you want something, own it and claim it, and the world will conspire to give it to you.
To my future doctor, who’s feeling all the pressure and jitters right now, we are all rooting and praying for you! Good luck and God bless you Sophie’s dad! 😘

I was shocked when I read about Eun Jiwon’s divorce with his wife of two years. They’ve been together for ten years before getting married in 2010 in Hawaii. She was his first love. I remember how genuinely happy he was in 1N2D when he announced he’s getting married, and how he sheepishly proposed his love in front of the camera. I know they’ve been trying to have a child, but seems its a bit far fetched now.
They separated August last year, but only made the announcement today. They said this is to protect the privacy of his non-celebrity wife. Though he’s a celebrity, and they say celebrity marriages don’t last, he’s a person, too. Separations are very difficult. This must be very hard on him. I wonder what happened that they decided to go their separate ways. I truly feel sorry and sad about this time of their lives and sincerely wish for each other’s own happiness down the line. 😦

Thank you for the memories 2012! Cheers to the new year! 😀

December 9 was the day PH was anticipating for weeks. The 4th bout of Manny Pacquiao and Juan Manuel Marquez. I wasn’t able to watch when it was broadcast on TV, I was out savoring Melo’s Angus Steak (lol). I only heard about Pacquiao’s staggering loss over the radio.
My two cents on the match: It did not made Pacquiao less of a champ. There were good days, there were bad. Stop talking and just consider this a bad day, then let’s move on. No need to prove himself time and again, he had done it countless times.
For the issues surrounding his defeat, first, I don’t think his change of religion is to be blamed either, though hardcore Catholics think so. The rosary is only a representation of our faith. It does not make him less son of God.
As for his retirement, well, at 33, I think he has achieved so much already, he can retire if he wanted to, thats for him to decide. After all, its his body that does all the working and beating. He must know when to stop.
And lastly for the photos posts by Justin Bieber, I believe they were not too creative, and I don’t think it was a joke. The stupid kid made fun of the fallen boxer, and it was not funny. It was downright rude and ugly.
I am not a big fan of the Pacman but he proudly carries PH every wins. We celebrate his victories and encourage him with his loss. I hope every true Pinoys would have his back at this trying time.

I’ve been living a sedentary lifestyle for a couple of years now. I eat several times a day. I take my lunch at my desk after it was delivered to me. I even make it a point to bring anything I can munch on in between doing my tasks. I also drive, which lessened my walking. I’ve enrolled in gym but I just go whenever I feel like it, which is waay too seldom. I think the only exercise I make is the walk going to the parking.

Well, I have somehow harvested the fruits of my sedentary lifestyle. Last year, I had severe pain on my left foot arch which lasted for almost a year. I had it checked by an ortho, did weekly massages and reflexologies, took several pain killers, creams & warm compresses every night. When I got tired of doing all of the above I just stopped because although the pain was subsiding, it wasn’t disappearing. One day I just realized the pain was gone. It left, just like that, when I wasn’t expecting it.

Mid this year I had a miscarriage. Though the reason was unknown, I think maybe because I had poor health? Or poor chromosomes/hormones or something not normal. There must be something wrong with me.

Few months after that tough time here I am experiencing something out of the ordinary yet again. Lower left abdominal pain. This used to be a dull pain, but as weeks went by it got kind of intensed. Maybe around 5/10 on pain chart, not too much but enough to make me feel uncomfortable. I’m going to have this checked in a week or 2 if it persists. I am scared going to my ob-gyne and learning of harsh findings. I hope this time its nothing too serious.

When will I ever take the hint that these are all wake up calls to diet and exercise? 😦