Has it been a year again already?! Did I not gave birth to this boy just yesterday? Time is too fleeting – my baby, whom I long to have again after almost 5 years, is fast becoming a toddler! I can still recall crying in the breastfeeding station while pumping so I can feed him in the NICU. And look at him now, a happy and active little boy, our daily ray of sunshine.
Like with her Ate Sophie, I’m torn between wanting him to be a baby forever, or waiting for him to grow older so he can be independent from me, and do amazing things he is bound to do.
My son Jolo, I love you always, in all ways my love! Doesn’t matter how much you grow, in my eyes, you will always be my baby. 😘
The day that Bench announced that Didi was the newest ambassador for Bench, I knew that sooner or later he would be coming. Months have passed, he was busy filming Ever Night 2, endorsements, photoshoots, Super Penguin, plus a new drama again. Didn’t think he would come anytime soon.
I was in the middle of my Eurotrip, in Amsterdam, specifically, when Bench dropped the bomb of Didi coming. Holy mother of surprises! This was it! It was morning when I checked the news, and I was literally floating the whole day! I had to be a VIP!
The VIP had 100 seats only, and it included a meet and greet! To become a VIP, I had to buy 20k worth of Bench products at their BGC flagship store for just 3 days, July 5-7. It was too sudden, the scheduled fanmeet would be July 20. I would be returning the night of July 6, and for sure good seats were already taken by then. So I asked my sister to shop for me on the first hours of the first day, so I could get a good seat.
I also booked a stay at Novotel Araneta, as I wasn’t sure if my baby would still breastfeed when I get back. Plus, I knew that parking at Araneta during concerts could get crazy, I did not want to waste too much time and energy. I’d rather waste it on the fanmeet.🤪
I was both nervous and excited on D-day! The last time I went to a fanmeet was 2012, and thought at that time I wouldn’t have another energy to fangirl that way again. But here I was again, fangirling to the best of my aging ability!😆
It was a 1 hour fanmeet, which included Q&A, games for lucky fans, and the poster signing for VIPs. I was a little dismayed with how the meet & greet turned out. I thought it would be after the show, where the VIPs stay behind, just like any other meet & greet. But it was included in the program, we all had to line up on stage to get our posters signed by Didi himself.
Oh Didi, if I was not entranced by his presence, our eyes connected as he smiled while he gave me the poster that he signed in front of me, which btw, I was caught in photo smiling from ear to ear I would not forgive the organizers of this fanmeet. Sigh.
Bench failed to disclose the mechanics of the meet & greet, so a lot of expectations were not met. We were expecting a proper meet & greet, have photo ops one by one, maybe some hi’s and hello’s. The bouncers and other security persons on stage were very strict about no phones and always almost pushed us to leave after getting the posters. The seating arrangement of the VIPs were bad too. Two bouncers were in the way of my vantage point my sister picked a bad seat, darn it. And the lucky fans who got to play with Didi on stage were not picked from VIPs as well.
Overall, though I was not fully satisfied with how it went, I honestly did enjoy. Not sure when I would be seeing him again, so its more than enough for me, really. Btw, Didi had a suprise rap while his song played over the coliseum, which was totally not part of the program, the host said. I was also expecting just 1 song from him I also met a nice youngster, my seatmate, and we’re already friends on FB. Also met several people on Viber group, who shared the same fangirling sentiments as mine.
Thank you Bench for bringing Didi to us! I hope its better next time Fangirl dream unlocked! Until your next fanmeet Didi! Or see you again somewhere in China 🥰
OMG, is this the best year yet for fangirling or what?! Lee Seung Gi, yes, THE Seunggi that I followed in Korea and Singapore, whom I loved dearly 9 years ago, is finally coming to Manila! The prayers of PH Airens were finally heard!
He has gotten extra popular ever since Hwayugi, and this fanmeet of his is promo for his new drama, Vagabond. I still follow his projects, liked all his posts on IG, albeit times have changed. Newer and younger actors/ idols come along. Though not as crazy as I was before, I’m still a fan. I will always be proud of him, and what he has achieved throughout his career. Am I coming? THE HELL YES!!! Seunggiya, this noona is coming for you!!
Another proud moment for my child Sophia! It hasn’t been easy, and it was love-hate teaching and guiding her through preschool. But here we are, Sophie graduates with achievement and values awards! I couldn’t be any more proud of her. 😭
Receiving the Schengen visa today made it more real that I would be leaving my 7 month old boy in a couple of weeks for a European holiday. It was the hardest decision to make, to bring him or not. Eventually, we decided not to. Just thinking about weaning him from breastfeeding so soon breaks my heart.💔
To make myself more at ease I’m listing the pros and cons of leaving Jolo behind.
Eventhough I know I will miss Jolo terribly, it will be a big unload on my part if I don’t bring him. No strollers and loads of baby stuff, no crying and fussing, no carrier, etc.
Sophie’s previous yaya, Ate Nors, is an excellent nanny. She will take care of Jolo when I’m not around, so I know he’s in good hands. Plus the 2 other helpers at home, my inlaws and parents will often come over to visit him. And there’s Facetime! I can see Jolo everyday even just on screen.
Maybe aside from the sudden weaning, Jolo will be stress free at home. No jetlag, no early morning call time, no all day everyday touring to places he doesn’t know and won’t even remember.
If he gets sick (I sure pray not), medical help is available anytime. Clinics, hospitals and pharmacies are all nearby. When Sophie got sick in Israel during our Holy Land tour, there was nothing in the small pharmacy nearby. I regretted it a lot and wished she hadn’t gone with us that time.
It would be a great bonding moment for Sophie and I, as most of the time she wants my attention but I’m more focused on the baby.
I can fully (or at least try to) enjoy the trip! I can also watch a musical in London without the baby (plans, plans)
Jolo cries in fits if he hasn’t seen me for 3 hours max. I cannot even imagine him crying for several days during my 17-days trip.
I have enough stash of breastmilk in the freezer, but he doesn’t like to drink from the bottle and just directly feeds from me. If he won’t drink breastmilk, I bought several formula for him to try. I’m not really against formulas, its just that abruptly stopping him from my breastmilk is truly heartbreaking for a breastfeeding advocate like me.
I also cannot even begin to imagine the pain of my would-be engorged breasts, maybe as hard as rocks. Theres no even use in pumping, when theres no baby to give it to, and no means of proper storage.
Maybe the saddest part would be unable to see for the first time if he has a new milestone, like standing on his own (since he’d be 8 months by that time).
We did not apply any visa for Jolo, so I would be forced to leave him.
The guilt of leaving my breastfeeding baby behind is killing me, esp since the reason is going for a holiday. But I just couldn’t let the opportunity pass, as I’m not paying for the trip.
I do hope to relactate when I return, and hope Jolo is still willing to breastfeed from me. Aww, the woes of this breastfeeding mom is strong! 💔
Why are they so addicting? I am now on my 3rd drama, and even though they go up to 60 episodes I stay up late to watch them. The details, storylines and cinematographies are out of this world, the actors are mostly good too. In Kdramas I cannot even go past 20 eps. I hate to say I’m starting to appreciate a little more of China.. 😆
Bench/ has announced that Dylan Wang is their newest foreign ambassador back in December. It was no-brainer that Bench/ will get him, following the other Dao Ming Sis before him that the local brand also brought here, Jerry Yan of Taiwan and Lee Min Ho of Korea.
Wise move, Bench! I’ve been hoarding your products since then – the shirts, pants and sweaters I wear now are mostly Bench/, believe it or not. Even my soaps are from your organic line. This marketing is truly effective for a fangirl like me! And while we’re at it, let me say that Bench/ hunting with Didi on it has since been a favorite past time of mine. 🤩🤩🤩
No guilt, only pleasure as I pose with my favorite boy 😍