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Thank you 2021, next

2021 for me, was filled with mixed emotions. Many happy events, some sad, happened to me this year.

Though we were still stuck at home for almost half the year, there’s a new home we’ve been going to since April. Its the new house of my inlaws in a posh community, it has a pool so my kids have been swimming almost all year long 😅

Mid year I decided I cannot let the government control my life nor my kids’ lives anymore. It has become more apparent that Jolo is having developmental delays and I somehow blame it on the lockdowns. The kids were stuck at home for a long time but Covid cases were not improving. I cannot let my child be a victim of other people’s incompetence. Kids’ mental health is very much important, too. Jolo is now currently undergoing intensive behavior therapy and SPED.

We’ve been going everywhere where kids are allowed for almost half a year now. We’ve been to the beach, zoos, farms, amusement parks, malls, play gyms.. the list goes on. We go out every week, making up for lost time. I believe going out as much strengthen their immunities, since Covid and its variants are not going away anytime soon.

But just when I thought I was starting to move forward all over again came my biggest trouble this year. My elderly father was ICU’d for 2 months due to Covid. I hit rock bottom with my financials and now in dire straits getting up from it.

The unfortunate events made me questioned God several times this year. Why my son, why my father, why I have people depending on me financially. But He has given me my biggest blessing this year, the birth of my third child Isabella. I know I lack in so many ways, but still, I was given something I asked for in such a short period of time. I feel undeserving.

Goodbye 2021! You are memorable and I am thankful for you. My wish for next year is simple, to just be healthy and to travel again. Always wishing, always hoping in 2022!

Sophie’s Christmas Piano Recital

My child Sophia, she amazes me in so many ways. Piano, ballet, voice and swimming lessons.. and she’s even doing good with her school works. Wow, I want to be just like her when I grow up 🤩

Here is Sophie’s 2nd recital video. She just started taking lessons April this year. Proud of you always Sophie!

Ode to Joy and Jingle Bells

Piano lessons by Online Music Lessons Philippines

Isabella❤️

Our little Isabella has arrived! Born on October 4, 2021 9:18AM via CS. Weighs 7.2lbs and 50in long. Delivered by Dra. Elsie Pascua and her team at SLMC-QC.

Thank you Dra. for helping me conceive and delivering my bunso, for holding my hand when I was scared at the operating table. It was a bittersweet moment since I had to undergo CS operation when baby decided last minute to change position and became transverse.

Our 3rd and last October baby, happy birthday Isabella! Thank you Lord!🙏

Baby out at 9:18AM
Our first family photo
Baby Sab and daddy
Happy birthday Isabella!🎈

Maternity Shoot

This could be my last pregnancy, and I’m thankful beyond words I get to have a 3rd child, something I only dreamed about a year ago. As much as I would like to have more babies, I am always reminded of the adeno pain, and how I went through so much to have another child again. Plus I am now 40 years old. I would like my uterus to retire for good.

In celebration of my last pregnancy and 40th birthday, I did my first and last maternity shoot. I may not have the celebration I wanted for a 40th birthday, but I am thankful, blessed to be spending 40 years of existence with the people I love and treasure the most. I look forward to many more healthy, long and fruitful years spent with my family. ❤️

Photos taken at Bundle of Joy Studio

What? Why?

You are my biggest heartbreak Jolo. When I rushed you to ER at just 4 days old, when you had seizures in Taiwan at 1 year old, and now, you are suspected of autism at barely 3 years old. 💔 So many other issues about you but these are the major ones.

WHAT do you want from me, Jolo??? WHY do you keep on testing me???

See you soon

Our little Bella at 21 weeks, see you soon baby girl 😘

George & Vladimir

It was barely two weeks ago when we welcomed these 2 furbabies at home, George the British Shorthair (5 months old), and Vladimir the Russian Blue (7 months old). They are expensive cats, and we wouldn’t be able to get them if we were not given a good price. 😅 We named them after their bloodline 😉 Since then Sophie cannot seem to stop playing with them, esp. George! She’s growing up to be an animal lover like me, which is good of course. Jolo, on the other hand, doesn’t give them a care in the world.

We bought them a cat condo, but they still prefer to be in the cage. George is the outgoing one and Vladi is so reserved. I know they will warm up soon, Sophie keeps letting them out to the den to play with them.

Georgy and Vladi, lets have amazing years together with the kids, shall we? 🐈‍⬛🐈‍⬛

Georgy
Vladi
Sophie loves George!
Finding Vladi

So Far Away

Far away thoughts

Living in yesterday

Far away thoughts

Is that all there is

Far away thoughts

Clamor in my head

How do I get back to

A life so far away

Good riddance 2020!

I cannot believe that I’m now writing my annual yearend post. How was it 1 year already?? I mostly just stayed at home and before I know it, its been a year!😂

And also how it was so different from last year, when I travelled almost every month, not saving for the rainy days. And the rainy days did come, and I am left dead broke for many years to come.*sniff

Anyways, it was January this year when we had the biggest scare of our lives in Taiwan. It now appears as a vague memory and I pray I won’t be experiencing that to any of my kids ever again. We had Jolo seen by a Neuro when we got back.

I was glad we did that Sapporo trip in February. The kids had fun with snow everywhere. I miss travelling the most and it was a good last memory of travel for now. Who knows when we can travel as family again?

By March, Jolo had a series of Neuro tests. Also on a different occasion he was diagnosed with AGE, and had diarrhea for 10 days. It was a bad experience at St. Lukes ER for kinda discriminating us since we just got back from Japan that time. Before the lockdown hubby and I got to watch the musical play Matilda, and Sophie had her ballet recital pictorial, which sadly, was postponed indefinitely.

March, April, May, June were pretty much uneventful. Those were the ECQ days and all I remembered were food deliveries, swimming of kids, buying my first few plants.

By June I came off Visanne (yes!) to try conceiving again. The adeno pain came back almost as immediately🙄 Mid June I started feeling THE neck pain and THE migraines, which went on for the next 3 months or so.

July, August, September were all about my neck pain and all the physical therapies I went through for relief. There were nights when the pain was so bad, I looked at my kids and thought about not being able to wake up. Those were the worst nights.

Sophie started with her online classes by August. Honestly I feel sad for her with this setup, but this makes our lives more convenient imho. She can wake up late since her classes are just on the next room. Schoolworks are light and not too strict, plus she’s somehow safe from catching the virus.

Ciao passed on September. It was a heartbreaking moment since we had to euthanize him. Play in paradise Ciao!

My adeno and neck pain were the worst in October. I even wrote a letter saying goodbye to my uterus! But I want to remember this as a happy month. The kids celebrated their 2nd and 7th birthdays, and we had small celebrations with the rest of the family. Jolo also started his speech and occupational therapies this month.

Come November I became a plant seller! The quarantine months I sold almost anything to my neighbors- masks, thermal scanners, face shields, etc. I even sold a lot of used stuff online. I collected a lot of plants over the quarantine so I thought maybe I could sell some of them. I also found a good supplier of cactuses and succulents. Prickles Manila was then born!

November and December were pretty much all about Prickles Manila and the 2 plant bazaars I joined. I remembered endless days of repotting, and procuring supplies.

How was it the year was short but the days were dragging? This year was so bad for me financially, but we are all fine and thriving. Kids and oldies are in good health. I somehow got through my herniated disc, the cause of my neck pain and headaches. My adeno pain, on the other hand, I know I will win over it. What doesn’t kill me makes me stronger. I maybe crawling on my knees, but I’m not going to surrender.

What a year it has been! Thank you 2020 for the challenges and life lessons. 2021, we are hopeful! 🥂

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