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Isabella❤️

Our little Isabella has arrived! Born on October 4, 2021 9:18AM via CS. Weighs 7.2lbs and 50in long. Delivered by Dra. Elsie Pascua and her team at SLMC-QC.

Thank you Dra. for helping me conceive and delivering my bunso, for holding my hand when I was scared at the operating table. It was a bittersweet moment since I had to undergo CS operation when baby decided last minute to change position and became transverse.

Our 3rd and last October baby, happy birthday Isabella! Thank you Lord!🙏

Baby out at 9:18AM
Our first family photo
Baby Sab and daddy
Happy birthday Isabella!🎈

Maternity Shoot

This could be my last pregnancy, and I’m thankful beyond words I get to have a 3rd child, something I only dreamed about a year ago. As much as I would like to have more babies, I am always reminded of the adeno pain, and how I went through so much to have another child again. Plus I am now 40 years old. I would like my uterus to retire for good.

In celebration of my last pregnancy and 40th birthday, I did my first and last maternity shoot. I may not have the celebration I wanted for a 40th birthday, but I am thankful, blessed to be spending 40 years of existence with the people I love and treasure the most. I look forward to many more healthy, long and fruitful years spent with my family. ❤️

Photos taken at Bundle of Joy Studio

What? Why?

You are my biggest heartbreak Jolo. When I rushed you to ER at just 4 days old, when you had seizures in Taiwan at 1 year old, and now, you are suspected of autism at barely 3 years old. 💔 So many other issues about you but these are the major ones.

WHAT do you want from me, Jolo??? WHY do you keep on testing me???

See you soon

Our little Bella at 21 weeks, see you soon baby girl 😘

George & Vladimir

It was barely two weeks ago when we welcomed these 2 furbabies at home, George the British Shorthair (5 months old), and Vladimir the Russian Blue (7 months old). They are expensive cats, and we wouldn’t be able to get them if we were not given a good price. 😅 We named them after their bloodline 😉 Since then Sophie cannot seem to stop playing with them, esp. George! She’s growing up to be an animal lover like me, which is good of course. Jolo, on the other hand, doesn’t give them a care in the world.

We bought them a cat condo, but they still prefer to be in the cage. George is the outgoing one and Vladi is so reserved. I know they will warm up soon, Sophie keeps letting them out to the den to play with them.

Georgy and Vladi, lets have amazing years together with the kids, shall we? 🐈‍⬛🐈‍⬛

Georgy
Vladi
Sophie loves George!
Finding Vladi

So Far Away

Far away thoughts

Living in yesterday

Far away thoughts

Is that all there is

Far away thoughts

Clamor in my head

How do I get back to

A life so far away

Good riddance 2020!

I cannot believe that I’m now writing my annual yearend post. How was it 1 year already?? I mostly just stayed at home and before I know it, its been a year!😂

And also how it was so different from last year, when I travelled almost every month, not saving for the rainy days. And the rainy days did come, and I am left dead broke for many years to come.*sniff

Anyways, it was January this year when we had the biggest scare of our lives in Taiwan. It now appears as a vague memory and I pray I won’t be experiencing that to any of my kids ever again. We had Jolo seen by a Neuro when we got back.

I was glad we did that Sapporo trip in February. The kids had fun with snow everywhere. I miss travelling the most and it was a good last memory of travel for now. Who knows when we can travel as family again?

By March, Jolo had a series of Neuro tests. Also on a different occasion he was diagnosed with AGE, and had diarrhea for 10 days. It was a bad experience at St. Lukes ER for kinda discriminating us since we just got back from Japan that time. Before the lockdown hubby and I got to watch the musical play Matilda, and Sophie had her ballet recital pictorial, which sadly, was postponed indefinitely.

March, April, May, June were pretty much uneventful. Those were the ECQ days and all I remembered were food deliveries, swimming of kids, buying my first few plants.

By June I came off Visanne (yes!) to try conceiving again. The adeno pain came back almost as immediately🙄 Mid June I started feeling THE neck pain and THE migraines, which went on for the next 3 months or so.

July, August, September were all about my neck pain and all the physical therapies I went through for relief. There were nights when the pain was so bad, I looked at my kids and thought about not being able to wake up. Those were the worst nights.

Sophie started with her online classes by August. Honestly I feel sad for her with this setup, but this makes our lives more convenient imho. She can wake up late since her classes are just on the next room. Schoolworks are light and not too strict, plus she’s somehow safe from catching the virus.

Ciao passed on September. It was a heartbreaking moment since we had to euthanize him. Play in paradise Ciao!

My adeno and neck pain were the worst in October. I even wrote a letter saying goodbye to my uterus! But I want to remember this as a happy month. The kids celebrated their 2nd and 7th birthdays, and we had small celebrations with the rest of the family. Jolo also started his speech and occupational therapies this month.

Come November I became a plant seller! The quarantine months I sold almost anything to my neighbors- masks, thermal scanners, face shields, etc. I even sold a lot of used stuff online. I collected a lot of plants over the quarantine so I thought maybe I could sell some of them. I also found a good supplier of cactuses and succulents. Prickles Manila was then born!

November and December were pretty much all about Prickles Manila and the 2 plant bazaars I joined. I remembered endless days of repotting, and procuring supplies.

How was it the year was short but the days were dragging? This year was so bad for me financially, but we are all fine and thriving. Kids and oldies are in good health. I somehow got through my herniated disc, the cause of my neck pain and headaches. My adeno pain, on the other hand, I know I will win over it. What doesn’t kill me makes me stronger. I maybe crawling on my knees, but I’m not going to surrender.

What a year it has been! Thank you 2020 for the challenges and life lessons. 2021, we are hopeful! 🥂

My October kids

My kids were both born on October, so this has been my favorite month since, next to December. Though I get sad as another year passes, I look forward to the kids’ birthdays every year. I watch them grow right before my eyes, and as hard and painstaking sometimes tending to them, I sincerely would like to have another one, another Sophie or another Jolo to love and care for and watch him or her grow.

Anyways, Sophie turned 7 this year! It felt like yesterday when I was crying and complaining of having a newborn, breastfeeding day and night. But it really did passed, and 7 years felt like a wind whizzed by. Sophie has grown into a beautiful and obedient kid. She is smart, charming, funny and caring to her brother. Though she has her mood sometimes, I couldn’t ask for a better firstborn than her.

And Jolo turned 2, too! Jolo is our sunshine. He is a ball of energy! He goes everywhere, climbs everywhere, tinkers with everything. Though he cannot talk yet, he has his own gestures, and is already forming his personality. Boy, he is such a sweet baby. He gives me sloppy kisses when its my turn to take care of him.

We would have celebrated the kids birthdays grandly this year, had it not been for Covid. I made sure we still celebrate though simple, the days they were born are always celebrating for. As in every year, I also had them photoshot in a studio.

I’m always nostalgic when their birthdays come, but really, its just me getting all sentimental. I’m always grateful for these little beings in my life. Happiest of birthdays to my little rascals sunshines! You both are my favorites in the world! 👫🏻

Some of my favorite shots from the kids’ prebirthday shoot, and snippets of their birthdays.

Prebirthday shoot
Prebirthday shoot
Jolo is 2!
Sophia turns 7!

Prebirthday shoot done at The Concept Room

Caricatures by Artist Josh Lepasana

Ode to Ciao

You were once a smart handsome young one

How I love your fluffy fur, your thoughtful eyes

You were the most loyal trusted friend

You fill our home with warmth and fond

 

Other people and dogs alike were impressed

By how good looking you can get

You always stand proud, run free

We received tenfold your unrelenting love

 

But all the good things, they do not last

You got older, slower, weaker

Your legs failed to run and stand like before

It must be painful, said your cries on the wee hours

 

You have done your part now its time to rest

Let me take care of you til the very end

Its difficult to accept you are gone soon

I miss you earnestly, for now and hereafter

 

But how do I say my last farewell?

Flashbacks, they came flooding in

As I touched your face one final time

It gave me comfort, peace to my heart –

you are home at last

 

Thank you Ciao

Lets meet each other again in happier times ❤️

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