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Plantita I

Since the start of the community quarantine, I lost a day job. I still go to the office every now and then, but most of the time I’m just home. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not bored! With 2 kids hanging around there’s no time to be bored how I wish!

They say during the quarantine you become either two things, a cook or baker, or a plant lover. I think I became a plant lover, plantita, plantmama, whatever way you call it. I’m so used to taking care of another being, I guess, I added the plants to care for, and check everyday.

The plants are so beautiful! I did not even give a fig about them before, but looking at them now make me feel so good. I feel happy when I see another new leaf, or when a flower blooms. Plus they make the house more lively, more vibrant, you know?

Showing off the indoor plants I collected so far. Hoping for more to come soon! Plus did I say that most of these are great air purifiers? 🌿

Fiddle leaf fig
Snake and Peace lily
Selloum and Janet Craig
Money tree
Calathea Lutea
Cactuses and Jade
These Caladiums suddenly grew and multiplied in the yard!
Bamboo

I lost a stray cat today

I remember him as an elusive kitten outside the gate waiting for food. Whenever I went out every so often to give him and the rest of the strays some leftovers, he has never left since. He grew as a handsome orange cat. He was Ciao’s favorite.

Over time he got into fights with another male cat. He has since became skinny and injured. I saw him last night lying on the door mat having a hard time breathing. I knew very well his condition, cats who breathe like that won’t make it long. I was right, he was found dead today.

Who are you saving, dear cat? Cats and other animals one feed and care for are most likely saving their owners from harm, they get sick and die first. So thank you, orange cat. Play happily at the rainbow bridge.

What was said today

I just kept in my heart 🔐

Just another sad news

My heart sank when I learned that my adenomyoma grew to 7cm over the past year. It was such a devastating news for an adeno sufferer like me. Wishing that Visanne helped it subside was false hope. My adeno is so active that it blew to almost double its size in a matter of months. OB said I can be a candidate for hysterectomy. It felt so tempting.

How I dreamt of pain-free days for the rest of my life! But half of my heart, there’s a tiny voice that says to ask for a child one last time. Can a 7cm mass conceive a child? If it can, what are the odds that the child and I will be safe and make it through?

So many questions, predominantly

How??? Why???

I know deep in my heart I will still try. Oh what I would give to have my youth back.

ECQ Random Unorganized Thoughts

ECQ Day 54

Listing these last minute happenings before the Enhanced Community Quarantine or ECQ, some wistfulness and gratefulness, some wishes and regrets.

I was able to go to SM Makati’s Prestige sale and got the baby stuff I needed, particularly Jolo’s feeding bottles

Jolo had a haircut and the kids were able to play in a play area for the last time this year

Husband and I were able to watch Matilda the musical few days before they cancelled the rest of the shows

Dined in on our favorite Royce Tea a day before the lockdown

We were able to celebrate my sister’s birthday together. We just had food delivery but we were together eating

Had Sophie’s ballet pictorial done

We were able to finish all of Jolo’s lab tests, EEG, MRI and even went to the ER when Jolo had Acute Gastroenteritis

Was able to go to Sapporo, Japan and came back healthy including the kids

Had a chiro session at Karada

I accomplished these and more few days before the lockdown. I’m thankful they happened, and wish more than ever that things would go back to normal soon. 🙏

I miss mundane things like malling and eating in our favorite restos ☹️

I even miss Sophie going to toy stores and bookstores every week or so, buying stuff I allow her to buy while she takes photos of the stuff she likes but cannot buy

I miss traveling the most! It was so hard to believe that all the tourist places in Europe we went to June last year were all empty, even every theme parks around the world!

On the other hand, I gained a lot of insights during the lockdown.

I realized more than ever the value of life, and how it can be taken away instantly even if you work hard to have a good one. How health and money are the most important during a crisis. You need money to be healthy. Sad reality.

I know our government is doing their best, its just sad that we are not prepared and do not have emergency funds when a crisis strikes. Lesson learned, save for the rainy days. Sadly we cannot rely for help all the time.

Family wise, I had a lot of quality time with the kids! It can get tiring and annoying most of the time, but we do a lot of activities that I know we won’t be doing anymore in a couple of years. Swimming, watering the plants, blowing bubbles.. the list goes on! I’m always thankful to have a family of my own, esp. now more than ever.

I’m thankful my family is well fed during this difficult time, I may have gained a few pounds okay, a lot 😂 but I’m not complaining at all.

I know I’m eating a lot during the lockdown, but I’m managing a bit of self care. I did zumba the first half, and I’m trying to do a plank every now and then. I also bought a personal blender so I can have fresh juices. I do scrub every other day for good skin, and added collagen, apart from multivitamins and Vit. C, to my diet.

I have always wanted to have a mango farm since I was younger, and now I really want it to become a reality! Mango farm, veggie farm, poultry, maybe a nice vacation house in the middle. It will be self- sustaining! I will work harder to make this happen for sure.

I have more time for Netflix. Taking care of 2 kids takes a toll on me but somehow I’m trying to at least watch an episode daily. Very slowly keeping up with the current dramas.

Maybe if there’s one thing that gives me a pang in the midst of this pandemic is that, I am not in the frontline helping others fight the disease. I have turned my back in clinical field more than 10 years ago, but to this day, my heart would always be a nurse’s heart. Never did I think a pandemic would happen in my lifetime. My heart goes out to those who are sick, those who lost their loved ones because of the disease. In return, I’m grateful to be beside my family, hugging my kids and worrying less.

Though I’m not in the frontline helping fight the disease, I have my own way of helping. I donated to several organizations and hospitals. We also gave several relief goods to the frontliners of our neighborhood.

How I wish the pandemic did not happen! Don’t we all. I would have enrolled Jolo to Gymboree. I would have seen Sophie perform on her school’s Family Day. We would have gone on a vacation to Nagoya during the holy week break. Sophie’s ballet recital would not be moved. I would not have cancelled our local family trip to Dumaguete. So many would have beens!

Its sad to say even after all these is over, maybe, just maybe, I won’t be patronizing any China products or travels maybe I can exclude one Chinese person that I admire 😅. The virus that came from them brought so much downfall to mankind. Thousands among thousands killed. Economies collapsed. I read somewhere it single-handedly tops all the other terrorism acts combined. I hate to say this but what goes around, comes around. Karma is real.

Since the lockdown, Sophie has been doing her online classes, and accomplishing her homeworks. It has been tedious, I know its just one homework or activity per subject, and 4 hours of online classes per week, but I feel like its such a chore. I do not know how homeschooling parents do it.

Now the DepEd just announced that school year will start by August 24. Of course, who knows if the virus will be gone by that time, so I need to prepare mentally, for homeschooling and online classes. I need buckets of patience too.

After all these is over, how do we go about to the way we were before? This virus changed our lifestyle, our perception of health, money. Health is everything! How we are now so conscious about cleanliness and sanitizing. Maybe we will have no more social lives from then on. Family is our basic social need. How healthcare workers are the most valued profession, underrated most of the time. How the future and now of education is online. And travelling would be unlike they were before.

Amidst all the negativities around the world and anxieties for the future, I’m hopeful, I’m thankful and content. I am with my family, healthy and sustained. Thats what really matters for now.

Why Visanne why

Almost 5 months of taking this pill and it has already taken a heavy toll on my body. The constant were the headaches. I thought I needed the glasses, tried weekly massages, physical and chiropractic therapies, but all to no avail. On the third month I started passing large amounts of clots, as the headache continues. I thought I was losing blood, so I started iron supplements. Almost 3 weeks now I have major debilitating headaches daily, which are not relieved by painkillers anymore like they used to. I constantly feel tired and worn out. Plus I gained almost 4kg.

Oh Visanne, why are you being difficult? I just want temporary relief from Adeno pain, but you have given me so much more, in such a godawful way. I cannot wait to get you out of my life. 😩

Sophie’s extracurriculars : Ballet and Kumon

Sophie is doing ballet again! She used to do ballet when she was 5 but stopped after 2 months due to various reasons. She lost interest when she stopped but last November something must have sparked her interest again, coz she asked if she can do ballet again.

I inquired in a different school, and her schedule fits, so we’re braving the traffic at Alabang Zapote Road everytime. Here she looks happier with her new teacher and new found friends. They are having a recital on May so we are looking forward to that.

Sophie in ballet

Btw, she also started her Kumon class last December, too. I wanted her to join Kumon for a long time but due to various reasons again, she was not able to. Now that she’s doing Kumon I realized how difficult it is for them, to do a worksheet on a daily basis but surely it would eventually pay off in the long run. It teaches a child strict discipline in studying. How I wish I did Kumon in my younger years, too.

Since she can read already, she’s doing Math in Kumon. Highly recommended if you want to teach your child responsible and independent studying.

Acts Manila Alabang

Kumon BF HOMES

Viral Scare

When the world welcomed the new decade with a big scare, the spread of Novel Coronavirus (read: SARS, Mers-Cov alike), I personally got the biggest scare of my life too.

Jolo had febrile convulsions twice due to high fever, and his breathing stopped after each convulsion. As in TOTALLY STOPPED that he turned blue and looked stiff and lifeless. We were in Taipei, Taiwan that time for a vacation, just a few hours before our flight back to Manila.

We rushed him to the hospital just near our hotel, Taipei Medical University Hospital. He was confined for 3 days, diagnosis : Influenza A, or simply, Flu. Imagine, its just a flu virus that almost took my son’s life away. It was by farthest, the most traumatic event in my life.

I am grateful for the doctors and nurses of TMUH. We may have difficulty in language but my son is alive and well because of them. I’m also grateful because we were still at the hotel when the incident happened. Timing is everything during emergencies. I don’t even want to think about what could have happened if we were inside the plane when my son was losing his breaths.

What a challenging way to start the decade but we made through it, and for that I am thankful. 🙏

I heard a sad memory

I heard a song on the radio today and my eyes automatically welled up. It was not even a ballad or a sad love song.

You da one that I dream about all day

You da one that I think about always

You are the one that I make sure I behave

My love is your love, your love is my love

I loved this song by Rihanna back in 2012 and was playing on loop while I was bleeding and losing my first child. I lost the baby at 10 weeks. I have never felt such great sadness in my life.

I conceived Sophie a year after. 🌈

I’m thankful for this song. It reminded me of that saddest part of my life, and appreciate once again, the 2 little humans sometimes monsters sleeping beside me today.

I thank you God.

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