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.. that just yesterday I was elated to finally see the first glimpse of my baby, only today to feel so down because of spotting brown discharge all day. I went to the OB and she said my cervix was closed upon IE, but I saw her gloves and it was full of brown discharge! 😣
I have to take tocolytics for a week. Even though I was somewhat relieved of my closed cervix and I do not feel any contractions apart from the normal abdominal pains and Sophie is still very much active, I’m still worried and can’t help thinking of preterm labor.. Could it be because I was daydreaming and looking at Sophie’s photos nonstop last night that somehow “nabati ko sya,” and can’t wait to get out? Oh please Sophie, we still have 6 more weeks! Please be a good girl and stay within mommy’s tummy a little longer! 🙏

It angered and frustrates me how some people think of just letting go of their pets; pets who serve them and gave them joy for more than 5 years, just because they do not like them anymore. I hate these kind of people. They disgust me. 😤😤😤

This is the first time that water from heavy rains has reached inside our house. This didn’t even happen last Typhoon Ondoy and Habagat 2012. But now, the joint forces of Habagat 2013 and Typhoon Maring has caused a shutdown of Metro Manila and neighboring provinces, has left hundreds or maybe thousands of people homeless, stranded and evacuated, has caused massive standstill of vehicles on the roads due to high floods, and some like us, who were lucky enough that only an inch or two of water reached the flooring of our house.

“Lord, please do not forsake us. Have mercy on us especially those who are suffering the most at this time. We lift everything up to you. We are standing still and know that you are our Almighty God. Amen.”

I know what Tabs must be feeling right now. He’s about to take his medical board exam for 2 weekends, starting tomorrow. Good thing he is so collected and cool, as he’s still doing some last minute studying. If it was me, I’d probably scare myself from all the anxiety and wouldn’t be able to sleep for several nights. I, too, have done my shares of undergoing a couple of board exams several years ago, and I tell you, it wasn’t fun at all.
In 2007, we both underwent the Nursing board exam, and it was especially difficult for our batch since the preceeding 2006 batch’s infamous leakage controversy. Preparing for the board was hard enough, with several months of review, PRC application, then the 2-day exam itself.. What was harder was the 2 month waiting time for the result to come out. Every waking day of that 2 months was spent thinking if I passed or failed. I even dreamed about it several times. It was the most difficult 2 months.
Upon passing the local board exam, I prepared myself to take the NCLEX, or the US RN board exam. Applying for this board was even harder and way too expensive, with too many requirements and all had to be sent to the US. To top it off, I was alone. Tabs was already taking his first year at med school and my other friends were working already. I commuted to SM Manila for my Gapuz review for almost a month, on my own. I also took the test alone, although Tabs drove me to the testing site. I also waited for a month, I think, for the result to come out, since it would be coming from California. How I dreaded those days of waiting.
When I finally received my letter of positive result from California Board of Nursing, I wasted no time and immediately reviewed for IELTS. Since Ph is not an english-speaking country per se, I needed this test, along with NCLEX, for me to qualify for a VisaScreen certificate, which is needed by an employer for me to work in the states. I love the English language, in fact, I am very good at it. But this test, considering it was only a language test, turned out to be more difficult than I expected. There was an interview part, and on the day of my interview I was really sick, as in severe cough and colds sick, and I was absolutely sure I flopped the interview from the disappointed look the interviewer gave me. So when I was about to claim my result personally, I was too nervous and shaky I couldn’t even walk up the stairs. Darn I couldn’t even open the envelope properly. I immediately teared up upon learning I passed. I seriously do not want having to do an IELTS again anymore. It was too stressful for me.
This time around Tabs is in the same situation again, 6 years after our local nursing board exam. Only this time he would be proved as a medical doctor. Yesterday, we went to Baclaran, to offer mass and seek for help and enlightenment. Of my 3 major exams, I did the same in this powerful church, and I was proud to say that not only did I pass, but with flying colors as well. I’m not a religious person, but I seek help if I need it, and thank if I was given. I believe that if you stay humble, have faith and lift everything up to Him, nothing is impossible. Believe and it will be given to you. That is The Secret. If you want something, own it and claim it, and the world will conspire to give it to you.
To my future doctor, who’s feeling all the pressure and jitters right now, we are all rooting and praying for you! Good luck and God bless you Sophie’s dad! 😘