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Adenomyosis and adenomyoma. 

These 2 are giving me a bad, hard day. 😣

What part of the context these people don’t understand? Do they even know that the topic here is same sex  marriage and NOT LGBT per se? I, for one, respect the LGBT community, but strongly opposes in same sex marriage. Its entirely 2 different things. #idiots

Life is indeed short and unpredictable. I can’t believe that Med, my Ate’s best friend, is at her deathbed right now. She had a preterm birth via CS a few days ago. Something must have gone wrong with her surgery, as she was re-opened for another one and had a cardiac arrest in the process. She was in coma for 3 days and was declared brain dead just this morning. Her family and friends, are still in the state of denial.

I was so affected by her ordeal, because one, apart from being my sister’s best friend, somehow she has become a family friend. Her daughter Mishka, was a flower girl in my wedding. We also went to a run together. The last I saw her was in Sophie’s 2nd birthday. She even greeted me personally in viber last christmas and new year.

And two, because she’s going through what I fear the most – death in childbirth. I never told anyone, but this is the main reason I delayed having a child for such a long time. I’m so scared to die while giving birth. Its such a heartbreaking way to die.

Med, I’m thinking of you. We may not understand God’s plan for you, but if you are to leave, I hope you’re at peace.

**Med has passed the night of Feb 6. Her baby boy is well and ready for discharge. Rest in peace Med. You’re home now. 

Before the year ends, I just have to post one last time, to sum up my 2015. It has been the best year so far, and maybe my most travelled year. I have travelled to several countries, Vietnam, Japan, HK and locally to Bohol, Cebu, Bacolod and Iloilo. I’ve also been to unforgettable places for the first time, such as the Holy Land and London. The best part of all the travelling was being with my loved ones, Sophie and Tabs. 

Careerwise, there has been ups and downs. I can’t still fully say I love my job, being my in-law is my boss and she gets on my nerves most of the time. But I am groomed for my future life, and I’m too blessed, too undeserving to complain.

Financially, I have saved a little somehow. I still do not have a million, but step by step I will get there. I’m still a big spender, hopefully this is the trait to improve on next year, so I can save more, for Sophie’s future studies and my parents house.

I may have financial issues with my family, as my elderly parents depend on me frequently. But I’m still thankful they are healthy this year. We also travelled locally a couple of times, and hopefully more next year, while they still can and able.

Healthwise, I still haven’t lost some weight. I maybe even gained more 🙈. But I had my share of efforts to be healthy. I joined several runs and drink cold-pressed juices sometimes. I still breastfeed so somehow I feel I’m okay, though not fit physically.

Social media wise, this year is probably my most active. I try to post something constantly, a photo or two so I can share a bit of my life to my friends and family.

As for Tabs, we love travelling together. We go to work together, and basically just do everything together. Its a bit sad that he’s not pursuing his medical career, but in exchange, I’m thankful because I can be with him everyday. 

As for my little girl Sophie who turned 2 this year, everyday is so much beautiful with her in my life. Motherhood and breastfeeding maybe the most difficult job gifted to me, but its also the most fulfilling. I hope I deserve another Sophie, (or a boy perhaps) in this lifetime.

What a great year it has been! Thank you 2015. Happy new year 2016, I’m excited to see what you have in store for me. Lets bring it on! ❤️

How I wish I could go back to the time where I can make you proud first. 

How I wish I made you proud first.

.. come to an end? Or is it just the start of something better, and greater? 😔

When people say “I don’t have any regrets in my life”, I don’t believe them. We can’t always have everything that we want, even if you’re the wealthiest or the most powerful, or the smartest, or the prettiest, somehow, there must be something that is missing, or something that you regret, even for once, in your life.

Maybe in this lifetime, this will be my biggest regret. But honestly, with my life right now, I wouldn’t have it any other way. Its just that sometimes, I caught myself thinking, what if really I..

My heart skipped a beat when I learned that Chin couldn’t walk for 2 days now. The maid said Chin was dragging her hind legs when she goes out to pee or poop, and they have to carry her back. I went outside to check on her, (which I seldom do now) and she was just lying on the ground. She responded when I talked to her, but quickly turned her head away. She wasn’t also eating.
I know chows are prone to arthritis, and she maybe suffering from one. She has also skin allergies all over her body, maybe from the heat because they’re just outside 24/7.
I truly feel sorry for her. I hate to think that we neglected her and Ciao since Sophie arrived. But its the truth, and just thinking about losing her saddens me. We have her for almost 5 years now, Ciao for almost 7 years.
I hope its not yet too late to have her cured. Chin is a sweet dog, and I love her still, maybe not the way it was before, but I still do. I hope she feels she’s still loved. 😥