leerenah

Before the year ends, I just have to post one last time, to sum up my 2015. It has been the best year so far, and maybe my most travelled year. I have travelled to several countries, Vietnam, Japan, HK and locally to Bohol, Cebu, Bacolod and Iloilo. I’ve also been to unforgettable places for the first time, such as the Holy Land and London. The best part of all the travelling was being with my loved ones, Sophie and Tabs. 

Careerwise, there has been ups and downs. I can’t still fully say I love my job, being my in-law is my boss and she gets on my nerves most of the time. But I am groomed for my future life, and I’m too blessed, too undeserving to complain.

Financially, I have saved a little somehow. I still do not have a million, but step by step I will get there. I’m still a big spender, hopefully this is the trait to improve on next year, so I can save more, for Sophie’s future studies and my parents house.

I may have financial issues with my family, as my elderly parents depend on me frequently. But I’m still thankful they are healthy this year. We also travelled locally a couple of times, and hopefully more next year, while they still can and able.

Healthwise, I still haven’t lost some weight. I maybe even gained more 🙈. But I had my share of efforts to be healthy. I joined several runs and drink cold-pressed juices sometimes. I still breastfeed so somehow I feel I’m okay, though not fit physically.

Social media wise, this year is probably my most active. I try to post something constantly, a photo or two so I can share a bit of my life to my friends and family.

As for Tabs, we love travelling together. We go to work together, and basically just do everything together. Its a bit sad that he’s not pursuing his medical career, but in exchange, I’m thankful because I can be with him everyday. 

As for my little girl Sophie who turned 2 this year, everyday is so much beautiful with her in my life. Motherhood and breastfeeding maybe the most difficult job gifted to me, but its also the most fulfilling. I hope I deserve another Sophie, (or a boy perhaps) in this lifetime.

What a great year it has been! Thank you 2015. Happy new year 2016, I’m excited to see what you have in store for me. Lets bring it on! ❤️

How I wish I could go back to the time where I can make you proud first. 

How I wish I made you proud first.

.. come to an end? Or is it just the start of something better, and greater? 😔

When people say “I don’t have any regrets in my life”, I don’t believe them. We can’t always have everything that we want, even if you’re the wealthiest or the most powerful, or the smartest, or the prettiest, somehow, there must be something that is missing, or something that you regret, even for once, in your life.

Maybe in this lifetime, this will be my biggest regret. But honestly, with my life right now, I wouldn’t have it any other way. Its just that sometimes, I caught myself thinking, what if really I..

My heart skipped a beat when I learned that Chin couldn’t walk for 2 days now. The maid said Chin was dragging her hind legs when she goes out to pee or poop, and they have to carry her back. I went outside to check on her, (which I seldom do now) and she was just lying on the ground. She responded when I talked to her, but quickly turned her head away. She wasn’t also eating.
I know chows are prone to arthritis, and she maybe suffering from one. She has also skin allergies all over her body, maybe from the heat because they’re just outside 24/7.
I truly feel sorry for her. I hate to think that we neglected her and Ciao since Sophie arrived. But its the truth, and just thinking about losing her saddens me. We have her for almost 5 years now, Ciao for almost 7 years.
I hope its not yet too late to have her cured. Chin is a sweet dog, and I love her still, maybe not the way it was before, but I still do. I hope she feels she’s still loved. 😥

I wish I can be like Peter Pan
Who never grows tired or old
I wish I can have all that I want
Without having to pay for them
I wish for the days when
It was young, pure and carefree
I wish I can turn back the hands of time
And relive the good old days once again

I know I’m not good at making poems, and it doesn’t take a genius as to what these words imply. Sigh. Its one of those days, I guess..
😣

.. that just yesterday I was elated to finally see the first glimpse of my baby, only today to feel so down because of spotting brown discharge all day. I went to the OB and she said my cervix was closed upon IE, but I saw her gloves and it was full of brown discharge! 😣
I have to take tocolytics for a week. Even though I was somewhat relieved of my closed cervix and I do not feel any contractions apart from the normal abdominal pains and Sophie is still very much active, I’m still worried and can’t help thinking of preterm labor.. Could it be because I was daydreaming and looking at Sophie’s photos nonstop last night that somehow “nabati ko sya,” and can’t wait to get out? Oh please Sophie, we still have 6 more weeks! Please be a good girl and stay within mommy’s tummy a little longer! 🙏

It angered and frustrates me how some people think of just letting go of their pets; pets who serve them and gave them joy for more than 5 years, just because they do not like them anymore. I hate these kind of people. They disgust me. 😤😤😤

This is the first time that water from heavy rains has reached inside our house. This didn’t even happen last Typhoon Ondoy and Habagat 2012. But now, the joint forces of Habagat 2013 and Typhoon Maring has caused a shutdown of Metro Manila and neighboring provinces, has left hundreds or maybe thousands of people homeless, stranded and evacuated, has caused massive standstill of vehicles on the roads due to high floods, and some like us, who were lucky enough that only an inch or two of water reached the flooring of our house.

“Lord, please do not forsake us. Have mercy on us especially those who are suffering the most at this time. We lift everything up to you. We are standing still and know that you are our Almighty God. Amen.”