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Raining cats and dogs

Its been raining heavily almost nonstop for a couple of days now. It feels like a typhoon one after another when they said there’s even no typhoon this time. I instantly plugged my electronic devices to power outlet when I got home. Times like this power could shut off anytime. It was raining hard when I left the office, traffic started to swell, and sure enough, its already flooded in Queensway. Good thing I have a bigger car now, coz Jazz wouldn’t probably survive water that high. I don’t know, but whenever it rains this hard I kind of get scared. Though I didn’t have any bad experience with flood or something like that. I just think a lot about my loved ones’ safety, mostly, and I realized as I’m getting older, I frequently pray for them, especially Tabs. I think about my cats too, maybe stuck under cars shivering from cold and wetness. Good thing I fed some of them earlier when rain slowed down. My dogs are lucky and sheltered, in a cold air-conditioned room I’m maintaining just in case it blacked out, at least it would remain cold through the night.

Also, its very discouraging to go out, like go to gym as I planned. I hope on my birthday the rain won’t be as hard as this one. My birthday month really is a rainy month. Growing up, it always rains on my birthday. Now that I think about it, how about LSG’s fanmeet.. I hope weather would tame by that time. I would probably move mountains so I can be there, come hell or high water. Praying for a finer weather! And also, wishing for everyone’s safety this rainy season. πŸ™‚

Current read

I’m not the kind who watch or read anything porn. Though I consider myself an open-minded modern woman, I’ve never been interested in anything obscene and lewd. It simply grosses me out.

Anyway, I’ve got to know what the fuss is all about.

And yes. I’m reading Fifty Shades of Grey.

Goodbyes

2012 seemed to be a year of goodbyes. Goodbye to my first baby, goodbye to Richville, and now, goodbye to my car.. I’m starting to dislike the word, and I hope there would be no more anytime soon..

My wall frame

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I found this under my pile of docs last night, so I decided to place it in a nice frame and hang it on my wall. Proud of what I have achieved, what I was capable of.
Can’t help the sudden feeling of remorse. 😦

Lazy I

I don’t know, but everytime I think about going to gym dreads me of some sort. Its like I’m always having heavy feet and laziness dawns on me everytime. Maybe the only force that keeps me going is the 2,890 I have to pay every month, locked for a year. Otherwise, there’s nothing, really. I thought that my miscarriage would be the boost that I needed to help me get fit. Or the thought that I may have diabetes, which I pray, won’t happen. Just that I always procrastinate. Everytime I plan to go, something happens, mostly it rains, and I would be discouraged to go. I initially planned on working out every tabs’ duty, when he doesn’t go home. So that would make it around twice or thrice a week, approximately 10 times a month. But on June I just made 2 visits to Fitness First. And I paid 2,890 for that 2 friggin visits.
Why the hell am I such a lazy ass? 😦

New pad

I’ve been wanting to have a unit of my own since about 2 years ago. I’ve been meaning to inquire in Sea residences but I felt like I wasn’ t ready yet, financially. I don’t know, but I felt like living in a condominium made me feel some sort of independence. That I can do anything I wanted to, eat whatever and come home whenever I feel like it. And it actually happened for real when tabs and I lived in Richville for a year. It was a small unit, 20sqm suited for a student. It was actually for tabs, since he was the student. Initially I disliked the idea of going to and from work/house/condo. It was tiring, plus the traffic in Manila area was unbelievable. But after getting the hang of it, it was bearable.
When we left Richville a year later, I couldn’t explain the feeling, especially on the last day. I experienced an unexplained feeling of sadness, as in every kind of separation. I stared at our room memorizing every details. That small room brought a lot of memories for me. I still feel melancholic whenever I think about our room, and I know for sure when I pass by again I would feel mixed feelings, sad and happy at the same time.
Two months later, our new unit in Newport was finished. But of course it was not to our liking. Not our design, not our brands of appliances, not our stuff.. I don’t know how this is supposed to be mine and tabs’ pad. It was a 58sqm unit, big compared to our previous. But it got smaller when 2 rooms were made. Our room was unbelievably small. Just bed and closet. Even our storage room in pgv was larger than this. But I noticed how some of our stuff in Richville were brought here. The aircon, microwave, wall frames, even our free coke glasses. ^^
It does have a different feel. My first night was spent with 4 of us and without tabs. Somehow the feeling of freedom and independence were lost. This unit is suited for a family, not for a couple. Even tabs were dismayed that his parents feel that it was made for them more, not for him. He initially wanted it to be just a 1 bedroom, or 2 is okay as long as he can put his stuff in the other room. But turned out that he would not be able to even bring any of his stuff because there is no room for anything. It was too small and it was filled with space-unfriendly furnitures.
I’ve been dreaming to have a space of our own, the one we created and really belonged to us. I’ve been fascinated to have a room just like the Grand room of Marina Bay Sands. Ever since we stayed there I couldn’t get it off my mind. I wanted it to be just like a studio type so it would look spacious, with king sized bed, carpeted floor, hotel-like feel.
I was also surprised when a blessing was held and I guess some 20+ people were invited. We couldn’t all fit inside so some stayed and chatted outside, like tabs and his uncles. I wasn’t sure if it was really necessary to invite as many, to think this is a small condo, not a house.
I hope one day I would find myself choosing furnitures and appliances for a unit of our own, just like what I did in Richville. But hopefully not for temporary. It might not turn out to be the best, but at least its what we can call ours.

Clumsy I

Dang I was such a klutz. I fell off a chair I was about to sit on in a packed eatery during lunch. I knew that the flooring was uneven, but when I was about to sit, the chair fell first and I couldn’t hold onto anything, so I fell in what I felt like a slow motion kind. My bum fell flat on a dusty floor. And the funny thing was, I couldn’t even stand! My staff, Irene held out her hand and another good lady held out hers. My right arse hurts it must’ve received the impact.
I currently have a heavy period just 2months after miscarriage so I guess thats why it hurts too. I think I fall down every once a year or so. Last year I slide after getting off Pajero and bum fell flat with me also having difficulty standing up. And it was about 2 or 3 years ago when I tripped on my sandals and fell off a sidewalk straight to the front of my car. It was hilarious. Oh well. Good thing I don’t worry too much about getting embarrassed. At least I’m still pretty after getting up. πŸ˜‰

Finally

..after almost 2 years, I hit the gym. Can’t say I’m proud cuz I only joined BodyJam and immediately left after. But its a start, right? πŸ™‚

Deal with it

As of this writing, I’ve been standing for the Metrodeal line for the past hour. You see, I bought a very good deal from them, 3,699 instead of 7,920 for a Lower Box seat for the NKOTBSB concert for today, June 3. I was just browsing thru sites yesterday when I spotted this deal. I knew that BSB was coming but I’ve no idea when. So I was a bit startled when I realized that the concert is scheduled for today. I mean, so much for having time to decide, right? The ticket is not cheap, even for half its price. But early this morning I’ve finally convinced Tabs to watch, since you’ve no idea how I was a huge sucker for this boyband back in highschool. I just couldn’t let this one pass me by, even though its not their solo concert. I wasn’t really an NKOTB fan, I was too young when they got really popular. But I have an idea of their music and have seen some of their perfomances together on youtube, and I can say, they blend well.
Going back to Metrodeal, I think they haven’t prepared for this well enough. Their guys here said they are unsure what time the tickets would come. Now what irritates me right this moment is how come they’re here, and not the tickets? They’ve propped up chairs and their laptop outside and we’ve been waiting for an hour and half already. They keep on apologizing but thats not what we need. We need the friggin tickets. I can see Tabs sitting on the side, looking very tired and restless, since he still came after duty. We even planned earlier to watch a movie first, since theres supposed to be a good 4 hours before the concert starts at 8. I feel like I’m a diehard fan still, what with coming here more than 4 hours before the concert, you know the idol stalker highschooler kind of type, only I’m not here to stalk or get in backstage, I’m just here to claim the tickets. I’m getting restless, too. Standing for a while can get really tiring, and I’m having back problems if I get really tired. Now until what time are we going to wait? I guess we just have to wait and see. Even Tabs predicted earlier that Metrodeal could end up having a problem, since they’ve had similar complaints with their deals recently. Maybe thats the price I have to pay for the discount I got. To top it off, it kinda looks like rain. I’m not sure if I would deal this way again. 😦

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