..too random tho? I haven’t posted for a very long time. Kpop happened😅 and well, life too.. Praying we all get by in this very unpredictable world🙏
..passed today.
I remember him as a thoughtful father, always asking how are we doing, to always take care of the kids.
He was 80. He may lived a long life, but it was a life full of struggles and regrets. He always said he regrets a lot of things, so I do not want to live my life like him. Then again, life hasn’t been fair for everyone.
Still, he was a good man. And this epitaph is exactly how he was.
Goodbye Tatay. Until we meet someday.
OMG what bappened?🤣 2023 went by so fast its another year again🥳 As always, counting my blessings as they come my way! Thankful and blessed for the year that was🙏 2023 you have been so good to us! Here’s my fave 2 photos each month! (I cannot with just 1🤪)
And hello 1st day of 2024!!! I’ve been waiting for you!🥳
January
February
March
April
May
June
July
August
September
October
November
December
As I look into my child’s eyes Brimming with hope and delight A soul pure, innocent and shy A bright moonlight on a night sky How I yearn for him to speak His words and thoughts, I always seek Oftentimes I feel selfish Life before him, I long and reminisce Many times I question myself why I have such heavy burden in my life See this is not for the fainthearted Extra love and care he ever wanted He has a lifetime to learn I know Like the rest of us, although He’s making me wait a little longer to mend Please say it’ll be worth it in the end Yet in such a short period of time He made us all humble and wise He turned me into a better person Maybe he’s my life’s purpose all along As I look into my child’s eyes Brimming with hope and delight I can see clearly now why Heaven sent me an angel in disguise
I made this poem as advocacy material for my CSN short course.🙂
I have a draft for my 2022 rundown which I didn’t get to post. But to make it short, it was a year of hope and gratitude for me🙂 I can see my 1 year old Bella is a neurotypical child, and I am thankful Sophie has another sibling to help take care of their brother with special needs. Bella was baptized, Sophie had her first communion. Jolo started OT and ST therapies again after ending ABA therapy. We travelled to Boracay and El Nido. The kids celebrated their 1st, 4th and 9th birthdays in one day. And before I knew it, 2022 ended. It was that fast. 🥹
Aaand now, its May. 2023. Already 5 months into the new year! Whew. Few more months and we’re putting up the Christmas tree again.🙏
4 meaningful months has already passed. January, I had a minor surgery to help me with adeno pain. February, we travelled to Hongkong again after 4 years! March, we went to Singapore. How we missed travelling the most! By April, Sophia started tennis and dance lessons. She’s loving these classes btw. Bella is growing up fast, probably my smartest, and definitely my naughtiest kid! My boy Jolo, he has improvements and regresses, but we plan on enrolling him to preschool this year.
As for me I started with gym this year. I’m not expecting too much, I just want to live longer 😅 for my kids of course. I personally chose to stay beside my kids during their formative years. Life is fleeting. Work can wait. As for hubby, he’s been busy with the biz, working tirelessly. Which is good for us, I guess 😂
This month I am waiting for Seung Gi’s concert (again so soon? why, yes!) A theater play before the year ends, and a couple more travels🤞🏼
Believe me when I say I have my share of ups and downs that some people cannot see, fighting my battles every single day. But I am manifesting this year will be a great year of abundance, good health and sound mind, above all. Lets keep on rolling, 2023!
My baby Bella just turned 1 this month! How was it 1 year already?😩 The baby I wished for one last time, it felt just like yesterday when I said she is finally here. The sleepless nights, the exhaustion, the demands of having a newborn.. they really do passed by. The nights are long but the years are short, indeed.🥲
Nowadays I cannot seem to keep up with her! Walking, climbing, messing, tinkering with everything. She’s such a handful😫 But I’m at this stage again where I’m torn if I want her to stay as a baby (smiling, cooing, excited for her next milestones) or a bigger version (I cannot wait to see her as a schooler!) Oftentimes I feel melancholic that this babyhood is the last. Oh how I love and cherish this season of my life! Undoubtly having small kids is the hardest but I know I will yearn for it when the time comes.
My dear Bella, whatever you grow up to be, remember you are special, you are more than enough, and mostly, you are so loved! Happy birthday my darling Bella!😘 Mommy loves you like I love a dozen chocolate bars! (maybe even more😘)
Here’s Bella’s first 11 months 🫠
I’m kinda embarrassed to say I had my first tattoo at 40 years old. It was in my bucketlist for years, but I was searching for the right design, and it did not materialize until now.
It was a simple one, but full of meaning for me. A happy and worry-free boy looking up at his red balloon, with no worries for the future. I know this boy. I have high hopes for him.
I would like my future self to look back at this season of my life where I struggled, searched answers to my questions, and how I overcame it. I would like to look at this grown boy in the future, with deep fondness, and together we say, we did it. We overcame your weaknesses. This tattoo symbolizes my unconditional love for this boy. I see past his imperfections and just love him the way he is.
I see you. And I love you. My first tattoo is you, my son.
2021 for me, was filled with mixed emotions. Many happy events, some sad, happened to me this year.
Though we were still stuck at home for almost half the year, there’s a new home we’ve been going to since April. Its the new house of my inlaws in a posh community, it has a pool so my kids have been swimming almost all year long 😅
Mid year I decided I cannot let the government control my life nor my kids’ lives anymore. It has become more apparent that Jolo is having developmental delays and I somehow blame it on the lockdowns. The kids were stuck at home for a long time but Covid cases were not improving. I cannot let my child be a victim of other people’s incompetence. Kids’ mental health is very much important, too. Jolo is now currently undergoing intensive behavior therapy and SPED.
We’ve been going everywhere where kids are allowed for almost half a year now. We’ve been to the beach, zoos, farms, amusement parks, malls, play gyms.. the list goes on. We go out every week, making up for lost time. I believe going out as much strengthen their immunities, since Covid and its variants are not going away anytime soon.
But just when I thought I was starting to move forward all over again came my biggest trouble this year. My elderly father was ICU’d for 2 months due to Covid. I hit rock bottom with my finances and now in dire straits getting up from it.
The unfortunate events made me questioned God several times this year. Why my son, why my father, why I have people depending on me financially. But He has given me my biggest blessing this year, the birth of my third child Isabella. I know I lack in so many ways, but still, I was given something I asked for in such a short period of time. I feel undeserving.
Goodbye 2021! You are memorable and I am thankful for you. My wish for next year is simple, to just be healthy and to travel again. Always wishing, always hoping in 2022!
You are my biggest heartbreak Jolo. When I rushed you to ER at just 4 days old, when you had seizures in Taiwan at 1 year old, and now, you are suspected of autism at barely 3 years old. 💔 So many other issues about you but these are the major ones.
WHAT do you want from me, Jolo??? WHY do you keep on testing me???
leerenah 
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