I heard a song on the radio today and my eyes automatically welled up. It was not even a ballad or a sad love song.

You da one that I dream about all day

You da one that I think about always

You are the one that I make sure I behave

My love is your love, your love is my love

I loved this song by Rihanna back in 2012 and was playing on loop while I was bleeding and losing my first child. I lost the baby at 10 weeks. I have never felt such great sadness in my life.

I conceived Sophie a year after. 🌈

I’m thankful for this song. It reminded me of that saddest part of my life, and appreciate once again, the 2 little humans sometimes monsters sleeping beside me today.

I thank you God.